Welcome to my world
Well I have been out of commission for 4 days now. I have been in so much pain since Monday night it is unreal. I have not been able to get out of bed much at all, this really stinks. So here I here I am laying in bed with my laptop watching what I have on my DVR so far.
I was sitting here thinking it is hard for me to remember what is was like anymore to live pain free, and that is sad. I am especially upset that I can not go with my grandbabies this year Trick-Or-Treating, I have gone every year with them since they have been born and now I am unable to this year, so I cry allot lately too. I can barely sit in a chair for more then 2 hours at a time let alone try to walk too far.
Now I know that I should not do this but I have stopped taking my Naproxen (for the arthritis) because it is not helping me at this point. Now that is not to say that after my surgery it won't but at this point it is just causing me to put more weight on that I do NOT need right now (or ever for that matter, lol).
I believe that once they do the Fusion PLUS get the cist off of my spine that is also pushing against nerves, things will be a heck of allot better for me then they are now. The reason it is taking so long for my surgery is because I am a smoker and Fusions do not work for very long on smokers. When you smoke your blood does not flow like someone who does not smoke. See Smokers And Fusions
So my doctor said I had to quit before he would even consider doing the surgery so this has been a living nightmare. Trying to quit smoking on top of all of this pain has been absolutely CRAZY for me. Quitting smoking is worse then a heroin addict trying to kick heroin, this has been one heck of a battle let me tell you. And hey I understand that I need to quit, not just for the surgery but for myself and my health as well as my family. I am also taking Chantix which I have to say has been helping me so much, I just can't believe it. I am a two pack a day person and I am now down to a half of a cigarette a day, which I think is pretty darn good considering how many packs I was smoking a day. Woo hoo!!
So this has been my world for the past year, just a heck of allot worse in the past 6 months!, unfortunately.










































